dear blog,
i hate to have to put it like this, but it's true: i'm just not that into you. right now! i mean -- things could always change! we could always ... i don't know, someday ... no, it's not you, seriously! i promise. no! i swear -- you've been nothing but sweet, nice, helpful, definitely supportive when i needed you ... but, i just think we need to take a little break.
what? well, you're right about that. yeah, we kind of have been on a break for the last two months already, i KNOW. trust me, i heard about how much i SUCK FOR DOING THAT from a lot of people, ok? yes, i'm a jerk. if it makes you feel better to think that, then fine: i'm the asshole here.
whatever, blog. but please know that for what it's worth, i really loved you for a while there. i know, that sounds trite and it is -- but it's also the truth: you comforted me with your company when i needed it, and more importantly, you helped me write when i wasn't writing ANYTHING (nada). so, i am indebted. (and i'm puking a little in my mouth at the cheesiness on display here ... i don't really know what is wrong with me right now, good god).
really? i can visit every now and then? that's cool. i might. right now i'm just going to not worry about it, though, if that's all right. i'm just very busy with my ... living. my breathing. my reading. my being here right now. i'm writing on paper again these days. mostly outside. it's pretty sweet, actually.
well, thanks for the memories, and i promise i'll see you again before you know it, ok doll? don't look at me like that, please. this doesn't mean forever. just a little break. i need my space is all.
love, yours always,
:) s.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo!
p.s. check out my favorite new music:
new mason jennings album called "IN THE EVER" - i love it all so so much, mmmm ... HE RECORDED THE WHOLE THING IN A MINNESOTA CABIN. he has a new all-inclusive spiritual bent. i love this man. (the album name comes from where his son says he came from before he was born, "ya know dad, when i was in the Ever?")
ben sollee album = "learning to bend" - DUDE PLAYS THE CELLO. HOW SWEET IS THAT?? see tracks "it's not impossible," "prettiest tree on the mountain," and "built for this."
cloud cult album "feel good ghosts" - minnesota band; v. weird, and v. wonderful at times ... i like "journey of the featherless" and "when water comes to life," among others.
p.p.s. you must go read my incredible step-mom's new blog about her life in india!! it's amazing and she is amazing and she inspires me daily. we all must go more places ... if we can. i am trying.
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sylvie,
i'm sorry to hear of your recent break-up. but, it sound like it's for the best. thank you for the link to lauri's blog, i've already left her a few comments. i'll take carpe lucis off my bookmark bar and add passage to india in its place. :-)
i hope you've been getting the pictures of tallak that i've sent. i haven't heard from you... :-(
xoxo, ali
the blog and i are missing you. enjoy the here and now, but don't be a stranger.
and your stepmom is a rock star. seriously! amazing.
Hope you see this, I lost your cell #:
In this hour, Siddhartha stopped fighting his fate, stopped suffering. On his face flourished the cheerfulness of a knowledge, which is no longer opposed by any will, which knows perfection, which is in agreement with the flow of events, with the current of life, full of sympathy for the pain of others, full of sympathy for the pleasure of others, devoted to the flow, belonging to the oneness.
Dear Anonymous -- I love your post. Did you recommend I read Kerouac? I'm still working on that ... :) I'll text you my phone number again here soon.
I did, but not just any Kerouac, just The Dharma Bums. I thought Herman Hesse described the concept of oneness as well as anyone, maybe even better than Kerouac. I did not mean to be anonymous. I thought my screen name would show and you would know who I was. Obviously I am not a seasoned blogger. Todd
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